Bank president Avery Victoria Spencer fought long and hard to land her seat as the first female president of tha local bank in Waukesha, Wisconsin, and she intends to keep it. Her ability to transform financial disasters into profitable enterprises is legend; her glamorous life the envy of those who admire her, and those who don’t.
Her successful life is a mirage. In debt up to her auburn-dyed hair roots, Avery has no idea that her need to spend more than she earns lies hidden in a devastating trauma from twenty years earlier, carefully guarded by retrograde amnesia.
With bankruptcy and public disgrace looming on her horizon, Avery takes a dream journey into a medieval dungeon where she learns that her real issue is not with money. Three wise beings give her clues as she begins to piece her life back together. Will it be in time to prevent society columnist Millie St. James from ruining Avery’s stellar reputation?
What about her forgotten husband, George, who returns from London to Waukesha, hoping Avery will fall in love with him again?
Tha Womun Who Forgot Who Shi Was
Tha Womun Who Fell Out of Fear
Book Two of The Woman Who Forgot Who She Was finds Avery Victoria Spencer returned from her first inner journey in glorious triumph. Her despair has vanished—her incredible debts are magically resolved. Avery is beginning to see herself in a new light—and she feels drawn toward George Logan without knowing why; except that he’s British, handsome, and seems to know her design preferences intimately.
But something else has changed that feels wrong. Instead of being more energized and enthusiastic, Avery is stunned that her once relentless energy has evaporated. She’s more intuitive and a better bank president, but she doesn’t care about previously important activities, including her upcoming charitable winter gala.
Everyone who’s anyone in Waukesha is waiting for invites to her now-renowned party, including society columnist Millie St. James who is tracking Avery’s every move, and suspects George Logan’s arrival is not as serendipitous as it appears.
Believing her energy was accidentally left behind on her first journey, Avery asks to return to her inner world. Back in a castle with her beloved candle, she’s shocked by how different everything feels—almost sinister. Instead of singing torches, skeletal soldiers hail her as ‘Great One.’ Instead of a dungeon, she’s trapped in a throne room; instead of regal décor, a grotesque tapestry beckons her.
Avery’s second adventure will make her wonder why she returned. Yet, as she braves what confronts her, she begins to see how deeply unworthy she has felt all her life. She will come to a pinnacle from which she must decide her fate. As her candle melts and falls from her hand, Avery must decide what to do. Will she dance with her nemesis forever, or let herself follow her candle into something she has never known, and uncover more about who she really is?
Tha Womun Who Found Hir Fire
Torn apart by grief and outrage, Avery can't get out of bed, much less go to work. A three-month leave of absence is arranged as Avery goes through what is rumored among social circles to be a 'mid-life crisis,' a.k.a. 'second Saturn return,' a.k.a. 'Dark Night of the Soul.' Whatever it's called, Avery stubbornly refuses to request any assistance from her inner realm, where powerful forces are still at work. Instead, she clutches her bed sheets refusing to embrace who she is becoming. But life has a work-around.
Avery's third journey begins in a very small cave, surrounded by shadows of grieving and fearful women who comfort her, until an intimidating and angry mountain threatens to turn her to shadow as well, if she refuses to face her rage. It could be Avery's last chance to become real. She must complete her course, no matter how terrifying. Every irritation, every morsel of disquiet, every piece of unresolved bitterness shows up on her mountain trek—not for her to battle, but for her to love and embrace. Underneath her rageaholic tendencies she will find her full and real self—which includes both her masculine and feminine energies. It's called wholeness.
Avery has never been a champion of femininity ('wimpy females' is how she refers to those of her own gender) and is obviously uncomfortable with her own sexuality. As she faces her mountain, she encounters an enormous serpent, claiming to be from the Garden of Eden. Terrified of snakes, Avery would run away if she could, but their meeting occurs on a narrow mountain ledge about 11,000 feet above sea level. There is no escape. At least, both she and her slithering guide like cigars.
It's that last piece—love—that Avery needs before she can return to her life and face everything she had chosen to forget. If she can do that, she will be strong enough to move into full acceptance of who she really is, restoring herself from a heart-breaking past and stepping into true love. For without love, all is lost.
The thing about buried trauma is that it doesn't stay buried; Life wakes it up. the Woman Who Forgot Who She Was is a fable of a woman with a forgotten past, facing her inner-world forces to restore her true wholeness. Set in the uniquely historical city of Waukesha, Wisconsin, is an intimate five-book series of stories that brought this author to an authentic life. Welcome to Book Three: The Woman Who Found her Fire.
(Tha Womun Who Fell Out of Fear)
Tha Womun Who Forgave Hirself
George and Avery travel to London; Avery has agreed to take on the Logan family’s financial challenges where resources are dwindling and no one knows what to do about it. While there Avery discovers an ancient Logan family Bible, suggesting that George is already married. An old photograph reminds Avery who his wife is, and launches her into remembering her own tragic past. Stunned, horrified, and guilt-ridden, Avery wanders the rain-soaked streets of London until, blinded by her umbrella, she steps in front of a moving vehicle–and ends up on life support.
Now Avery must choose whether to live or die and death is tempting. Could it be the solution to end her awful memories? Can she get a ‘do-over’ in the next life?
Avery encounters both the zany Angel of Life and the elegant Angel of Death who provide insights, but she’ll have to decide her own fate, because God tells her, she can die if she wants to…it’s up to her. But there are caveats.
One thing is for sure: if Avery chooses to die, George won’t live without her. Not any longer. Whither thou goest…